I finished last year with my mind extremely occupied by neocities. So, I feel it’s fitting to write something here as 2025 wraps up.
This year has had plenty of ups and downs. At times, the situations have felt very desperate. Re-reading my journal entries for this year has made this painfully clear. But thankfully, everything turned out alright in the end.
It’s been a pretty shaky year. Plenty has happened.
For a start up, I almost lost my job. I actually did, technically. Although we all got re-hired instantly. It was a bureaucratic nightmare which did not much but stress everyone beyond healthy levels. But! Since I did technically got fired, I was paid enough money to start paying a trip to Japan for the next year. I highly underestimated how much it would cost lol, but my girlfriend and I have managed to save enough to cost the whole thing.
I also got the chance to strengthen some friendships, and also put myself under examination of how am I as a friend. I’ve always been shy, introverted and anxious, so making friends has never been easy for me.
These characteristics have shaped my relationship with how I approach people and form bonds with them, and I found out I'm not entirely happy with how I manage things. I don’t want to always shy out or stay away from other’s because of the unfounded perception that I might annoy them.
I wish to be a more present friend. I will be! Thankfully, I have met very patient people who care for me the way that I am.
Somehow, and for some reason, I am a very lucky person. I think about this frequently, and am extremely grateful for it.
I also got to take my first year in musical education! It went terrible !!!! (of sorts). I enrolled on a class for which I didn’t have the prerequisite knowledge for, so it was a pretty uphill battle which I ended up failing.
Even though I didn’t pass, I am more motivated than ever to study. Being around people who care about the same thing as me, and having classes about it it’s such a pleasant feeling. I want to devote myself completely to it. And I will pass eventually!
I got the chance to play live for the first time as well! It was a nice experience. Mostly by the sheer display of camaraderie between artists. It’s not something you get to experience whilst writing songs alone in a room. I felt very happy and fulfilled with that experience. I owe myself to do it again sometime in the future.
I also put out two songs!! I'm still trying to organize every listening platform so they are cohesive, but here are bruise me and citric rose. I started a whole new project for which I am deeply excited and hope to update more in the upcoming year.
The more I live, the more I grow more attached to the tech-hippie kind of life. This year I turned my attention to alternative ways of using computers and the internet, bypassing the monopoly big tech companies have on everything. I expect to further this approach on 2026 and so on.,a ll the way until I finally become a hermit living on a geese farm. Baby steps though, of course.
To highlight something out of the whole year. The time I got to spend with my girlfriend, family and friends takes the bright spot. I cannot put to words how special it is to me, and how lucky I feel being surrounded by such marvellous people.
As much as a grumpy pessimistic killjoy I can be at times, I always have this tiny voice inside of me which always rings with the same sentence: 'It will all be alright at the end'. And I abide by it on every level. As bad as things seem and how the shitification of everything seems forever prevailing, I can’t help but think things will eventually align and it will get better and it will be alright.
Spread the love and humanity we all have! I’ll try to do my bit.
Thank you if you've read so far and thank you for ever checking my page. I hope good things come your way.
I finish this year, again, unhappy with my page's layout lol, but I'll get to work on it soon enough.
Also, we are on our way to adopt another cat!!
Happy new year everyone!